Abortion Stories (England)
Personal testimonies from women (and men) who have gone through an abortion.
The unsolicited abortion stories on these pages have come to Abort73 through our online submission form. Though not all women regret their abortions, these stories demonstrate that countless women do.
"I was 16 and totally convinced I wasn't pregnant—just greedy and overeating. I thought that was why I had put on weight. But my boyfriend was scared, so we took a test. I wanted him to come in and take it with me, but I didn't want to ask him so I did it alone. Two minutes felt like two lifetimes and then, bang, I'm pregnant. I panicked and then for some reason almost smiled. I don't understand…"
Date: January 10, 2017
"My boyfriend and I had recently spilt up. He was away when I realised I was pregnant so I rang him in a state and told him. I waited until I'd missed my period to take a test, but it was negative. So I went to the doctor to find out why I'd missed a period. They did a test and that was negative as well. The doctor sent me to hospital with a suspected appendicitis. Another test, this time positive.…"
Date: November 18, 2016
"It has been eight weeks since my abortion. I fell pregnant at the age of 16. When my pregnancy test came up positive, I did not really know what to think. I knew my family was not going to take it well, but at the same time, I knew that I wanted to keep my baby. At the time I found out, my mum and dad were away on a holiday so I kept it to myself. The day after I found out I was pregnant, I phoned…"
Date: May 25, 2016
"I was only 19 when I found out I was pregnant. My boyfriend, who was soon to be my husband, was a lot older than me. I was young and ambitious—a feminist—but was not using contraception. Looking back, I was naive and a bit of a sheep! I was so in love with this intelligent man and was led by his views. I let myself be compromised. I didn't want to have a child; I was young, a pioneer,…"
Date: April 7, 2016
"I had been with my ex for a few weeks before I found out I was pregnant. I didn’t know what to do when I found out. My ex said he’d be there for me no matter what I did, which was a lie. We talked about it, I went to the clinic, but I just couldn’t do it. I wanted more thinking time, so I made another appointment. I went the second time and put it off again. The third time I…"
Date: February 20, 2016
"Every day is a battle. It’s been five years since the first abortion and four since the second. I fell in love with my two angels straight away, but the guy I was with forced me straight away. He said he would leave me, said my family would leave me. I’d have nothing. I wasn't mentally abused until it was over with both times. I remember every second of my hell—the basement…"
Date: February 19, 2016
"I have been with my boyfriend just over a year, and I fell pregnant in September. After we found out, we couldn't be happier. Things changed. He liked to do drugs a lot and go out and see his friends. I didn't think he was mature enough or even ready to have a child. So we spoke about aborting. Literally hearing the word makes me feel guilty. I never wanted to get rid of my child, but I felt…"
Date: December 22, 2015
"I posted on here on 29th June 2015. It's almost nine weeks since my abortion. I wanted to write an update. I know it's still early days, but the pain from my abortion is getting worse (I had one on 19th June 2015). I feel so depressed. I've not returned to work because I am now so mentally unwell. I constantly wish I was dead. I hate waking up in the morning. I cannot live with myself. I hate…"
Date: August 18, 2015
"I had an abortion this past May. I was six weeks along. I was late, and I bought a pregnancy test. It came back positive. I told my boyfriend, and he said that there were two options. We could keep it—even though we couldn't afford it at the time and were still living with my dad—or we could get rid of it. At first, I decided to keep it, but my boyfriend kept saying that if we told…"
Date: July 21, 2015
"I was 20, and life was perfect. I'd just come home from an amazing holiday—the first I'd ever paid for by myself. I'd been offered a place at university, I had a wonderful, loving, long-term boyfriend, I had a bright, brilliant future, and I could barely be happier. Then I took the test and saw a little pink cross; the result took seconds. The moment I saw it, I fell in love—in love…"
Location: Warwick, England
Date: July 15, 2015
"I had an abortion last week. I have never been so devastated about anything. The father put a lot of pressure on me, and I caved in. Now I don't think I can live with myself. I feel like a monster. Worse than a monster. I wasn't my biggest fan beforehand, but now I despise myself. How could I do such a thing? How?!"
Date: March 21, 2015
"I knew I was pregnant straight away. I could feel it from the start. I was pretty sure I was going to keep it; I was scared but a little excited—until I told the father. He had decided from the start that we should have an abortion. He told me that I was ruining his life and his family’s life. He told me the baby would resent me, and I would never be able to cope. At first, he said…"
Date: March 16, 2015
"My story may not be as harrowing or violent as many of the stories I read on this blog. It's a simple one. I was pregnant, and now I'm not... One morning I went out for a jog. I felt a strange and sharp pain in my stomach, so I decided to cut my jog short and walk home. Something told me to take a pregnancy test. I didn't give it enough time to read fully. It looked negative, so I threw it in…"
Location: London, UK
Date: February 19, 2015
"I've had two abortions, and I regret both. I was 15 when I had my first one and have always regretted it. My boyfriend at the time wanted me to keep it, but I was raped around the same time, so my mum and everyone else advised me to have an abortion. A few months later, I was pregnant again and kept it and was so happy. It’s the best thing that has happened to me. Two years later, I fell…"
Date: February 3, 2015
"I sadly made the decision to 'give up' my child at 8 weeks—which was the biggest mistake of my life. I used the tablet method, which didn't seem that bad until an hour after the second tablet. I cannot describe the physical trauma my body and mind went through... The father of my child did not want children nor did he have any interest in being around if I decided to keep the baby. He was…"
Date: March 14, 2014