Abortion Story: Chattanooga, TN
Submitted to Abort73 by a 45-year-old woman on May 5, 2020.
I had an abortion when I was 18 years old. Finding out I was pregnant was a shock to say the least. I had just broken up with my boyfriend of two years and was trying to start over. I didn’t know what else to do and I was scared. My fear turned into anger and I began to lash out at everyone. Looking back, now in my forties with kids, I had hit rock bottom. My mother drove me to Atlanta to get the procedure done. I remember there was a heavily pregnant woman in the office getting an abortion as well and at the time, I felt nothing. I had successfully removed myself from the situation and couldn’t wait for it to all be over. There was cramping afterwards and a lot of bleeding over the course of several days.
As the years went by, the feelings of guilt slowly crept in—no matter how hard I tried to keep them down and no matter how hard I tried to justify it. Having an abortion is not a badge of honor; it’s the opposite. It is a burden on my sub-conscience. Today I am a wife and mother of two. I adore my kids. I would do anything for them. I love them to tears so whenever I think about that little life inside of me that I consented to have destroyed so many years ago, I tear up and ask for forgiveness. I wish so much that I had had the maturity and support from family members and friends to have carried out that pregnancy and utilized adoption. THAT would have been the right decision and one that I would have been proud of. Instead, I carry guilt and I feel like I was betrayed as a teenager for not being raised to value life. All I can do now is ask for forgiveness and raise my own kids to value life by telling them my story and showing them how negative it has impacted my life.
If you choose to have an abortion, be aware that one of the potential side effects is mental aguish and overwhelming feelings of guilt. Nine months is nothing compared to a lifetime of regret. What I didn’t know then that I know today is this: there is nothing more sacred and innocent than a human baby. Respect the little guy, for their sake and your own, and do the right thing—which is to carry the pregnancy to term and find a loving family to raise them.
Location: Chattanooga, TN
Date: May 5, 2020