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I was raised in a verbally and psychologically abusive environment. I became a very insecure and fearful young girl. I had my first panic attack when I was 10 years old. I was very skinny, and I hated the way I looked. I would look at myself in the mirror and say I'm so ugly; I hate this body part and that body part. I didn't get any attention from boys like my other friends whose bodies had matured. So I clung to any guy who gave me attention, even if he wasn't a good and respectful guy. I was desperate for love and attention. I ended up dating a verbally and psychologically abusive guy when I was 14 years old. I was a Christian and wanted to stay a virgin until marriage, but I felt pressure from my boyfriend to have sex. I was afraid if I didn't that he would either cheat on me or leave me. He told me that no one would ever love me the way he did. I believed him. I was afraid of being alone. When I was 15, I got pregnant. I was upset, but at the same time I wanted to keep the baby. Pressure from my mother led me to get an abortion. After my abortion I became very depressed and would sleep a lot. I would have continual nightmares of babies being thrown against a wall and screaming. This only increased my anxiety and panic attacks.

I had another abortion when I was 20 and in college. It was a very horrible experience that gave me PTSD. When I left the abortion clinic, I heard a baby screaming as I was walking to my car. After that experience, every time I heard babies or little kids crying or screaming I would get emotional and have a panic attack. In my late twenties, I was healed from the emotional pain and PSTD from my two abortions, by the power of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. Today I am in a loving marriage, and I have a beautiful little boy whom I thank God for continually. He brings much joy to my life. I have been forgiven and set free from the sin and scars of abortion!! There is hope in Jesus! Hope for you too!!!

Age: 36
Location: New York
Date: January 25, 2020