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I found out I was 6 weeks pregnant in July. When the test came back positive, I was so happy! I have a 5-year-old already, but I have wanted to have another baby for so long. At the time, my boyfriend and I had just broken up, and we weren't talking. I tried calling, but he ignored me, so I sent him a picture of the positive test. He still ignored me. I had my friends speak to him about it. He still wouldn't get in contact with me. When he finally did, a week later, he told me to get rid of it. I was heartbroken because not only did I love him so much, I instantly fell in love with my baby. I also had told family and friends, and only one of my friends was there for me. The rest made me feel so terrible about wanting to keep my baby. I loved it so much. The father of the baby began to be so nasty to me, and I felt like if I had the baby, I'd be left with nobody. For a couple of weeks, I was so undecided. I spent most of my time laying on my lounge room floor, just wanting to die. I felt so alone. I finally decided that I would go ahead with the abortion because, as much as I wanted my baby, I didn't want the father of the baby to resent me for it, and he was only 18—with no children and wanted to live he's life. But I've learnt that you need to do what makes you happy because at the end of the day, you’re the one who has to live with the regret, not anybody else. After the abortion, I woke up feeling so empty and sad. I realized it was the biggest mistake of my life and wished that I would have had that baby, raised it on my own, and loved it every day. I was so convinced it would have been a girl. I named her Aylah Grace. I will never forget my little angel.

Age: 22
Location: Australia
Date: November 2, 2013