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I found out I was pregnant in March, 2013. I was excited but scared. I already had a 3 year old and was separated from his father, but I was also excited because I felt I was doing this pregnancy differently—by being married first, then getting pregnant. I remember going to Walmart and buying a cheap pregnancy test. It was right around the time they put out all the decorations for Easter. I also bought my son some plastic eggs. We went to the counter to pay and, in my head, I felt as if the test was going to be positive. When I was rang up, my total was $5.25, which was crazy because my birthday is 5/25. I thought it was a sign. I remember walking to the restroom, not being able to wait to get home and take it… When it came out positive, my heart sank. I was not sure how to feel. I called my husband right away and told him. He was in total shock. When I got home everything sank in. He was upset that I was even considering keeping the baby, telling me all true facts, but it still was killing me inside. Two weeks later, after speaking and arguing about it, we decided to get an abortion. It has been one of the hardest decisions in my life to deal with. My heart hurts every day. I go out with my son and I think of how horrible a person I have been. What if I would have done that to him? I know my husband and I would have found a way. My due date would have been in about a week, and I can't help but think where I would be and how different my life could have been if I would have stood my ground on not having the abortion. Hardest decision of my life and still living with regrets.

Age: 21
Location: Oxnard, CA
Date: November 1, 2013