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Its only been a week since I had my abortion on the 1st February, 2013. I try to act as if I am OK with what I did, but I am not. I already have a 4-year-old son, and I still live with my mother, and I am currently unemployed. It was a mutual decision between me and my boyfriend, but I felt I really had no choice but to do it.

My mother always threatens to disown should I get pregnant out of wedlock again, as I broke up with the father of my son. So I felt it was the only option I had as to not force my boyfriend into marriage out of obligation. I also didn't want him to end up resenting me for making him a father while it wasn't planned. I thought he would think its what I do to try and keep men, by getting pregnant, as this was the 2nd time I got pregnant, and it was just 3 months into our relationship.

I am an emotional mess half the time but try to hide it as best as I can, especially around my boyfriend, but I always end up starting useless fights just to lash at him. He is very patient and understanding but at some point he will snap also. I never believed in abortion and I went against everything I believe in just to keep the peace. I was caught between a rock and a hard place, but I think I should have stood my ground because this is affecting me more than I anticipated.

As women, when we have sex protected or not, we should always consider the consequences that come along with it. It's a good thing when you have a supportive partner, but what the one woman goes through emotionally and mentally, no amount of support can make up for it or make it go away! You always have a choice, and it doesn't have to be abortion!!!

Age: 25
Location: Johannesburg, RSA
Date: February 8, 2013