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I had an abortion when I was 16 on May 3, 2011. I wanted to keep it and so did my boyfriend, but my mom kept threatening to kick me out and told me she wouldn't be there for me and the baby. She was also telling me I wasn't able to support the baby. I went to get my ultrasound at 7 weeks. I was instantly connected with my child. Tears came to my eyes when I saw its little heart beat. As soon as I walked into that clinic, I just felt depressed and angry. My baby is supposed to be due in less then a month. As the time gets closer I feel more and more upset. Every day I think about holding it, watching it grow, and just being there for it. I would honestly do anything to go back to the date of my abortion and walk out of that hospital and stand up to everyone and tell them it's my choice, my baby and my life. I'm going to do what I want. But it's all too late for that. And I just cant seem to let go. I really hate my self for doing this to my little baby. He or she deserved to be in this world. My boyfriend and I really want to get pregnant again and keep this one. A lot of people are going to read this and think I'm stupid and I get that, but I just feel like I should. My advice for anyone considering abortion: Really think about how your going to feel mentally afterwords. Because I would much rather stay home and change dirty diapers and get no sleep than go through what I'm going through right now. But thankfully, my boyfriend is still with me and feels the same way so I'm not going through this alone. We talk about it when its bothering us. It doesn't change the fact, but it does help a bit. But there are times I feel like I'll never get through this.

Age: 17
Location: Nova Scotia, Canada
Date: November 1, 2011