Birth Story: Canada
Submitted to Abort73 by a 21-year-old woman on December 18, 2013.
My story began a long time ago, but I'll start with what happened today. I had booked an appointment to get an abortion. I knew that having one would have been the easiest route in continuing with my life. I had no support from the sperm donor, as he had another family. It was a complete mistake on my part. I went into my appointment already a single mother of a beautiful, two-year-old girl. Her father is still involved and supportive, even though we cannot be together. I walked in knowing that doing this would mean I was giving up on being a mother because there was no other logical reason I could think of, other then I'd be alone. I am already a great mom but my family and friends still "supported me" in my abortion—giving me all the reasons why abortion would "fix the issue." When I walked into my appointment, I was convinced it was the best thing to do, but my heart still felt like it was in my throat. It got worse as I saw all the people there to do the same thing as me—of all ages. I counted how many lives would be lost in one day in that clinic. To think there are so many abortions in Toronto! I called three that were booked full. This was the fourth. I started to feel queasy. The anxiety meds and Tylenol they gave me were not helping. A young girl came in. Her boyfriend looked supportive but unhappy with her decision. When she went in the room, I had no idea what was happening, but I got filled with sadness at a random moment. I am not religious, but I could feel her child die. They called my name and I went into the room trying to convince myself I could do it. The nurse was very kind and asked me to lay down. I started bawling my eyes out. I tried calming down but couldn't do it. I left and saved one of the babies in line today. I'm still not sure if I made the right choice, but it was my choice. I will be a single mother of two kids—trying to start my business. And I am terrified and ready to take it on. All for a little peanut with a heartbeat.
Date: December 18, 2013