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I was 17 when I got pregnant. My boyfriend and I were ready to keep the baby, and even broke the news to my family. My mother cried everyday. One day she came in my room and convinced me to have an abortion. She told me it was going to ruin my life and my child's life. My child wasn't going to have a stable mother and father because the the chance of me marrying that guy was very unlikely.

All the drama and negativity convinced me that it was the right choice. The procedure was fast and easy. I didn't feel a thing and life was back to normal. No one in my high school ever knew and I was ready to move on.

Two months later, I was stupid enough to get pregnant AGAIN! My boyfriend and I saw how easy the 1st abortion was and decided to do it again (only 4 months after the first). We didn't tell a soul. Things were pretty OK at the time.

Well, its now 8 years later and you have no idea the regret that I feel. I am a second grade teacher and I love kids, and sometimes I wonder how old my child would be and how much I would love that child if it were here. I only wish that child were here right now. It's hard to deal with the fact that a life was destroyed because of my immature and selfish decisions.

I actually ended up marrying that same guy years later. We are very happy together :-) . It's not easy coming to terms with the fact that we pretty much killed our could've been family. Lately, we've actually been trying to get pregnant and haven't been successful. I almost feel that this is "what I get" for the my foolish decisions. I don't know if I will be able to have children in the future, but it definitely hurts.

If I could go back and change things, I would. Not just because I want children now, but because it took me years to realize how wrong it is to take away another's life. It shouldn't be a choice.

Age: 25
Location: Florida
Date: April 1, 2011