Submitted to Abort73 by a -year-old woman on November 6, 2006.
I was 17 when I found out I was pregnant. I was scared and decided that I could never have this baby. I started thinking about me. What will people think, what will my friends think? All this became a burden. I thought abortion was the only choice. My boyfriend at the time did not agree with my choice but we both were in no position to care for a baby. I went to the clinic and had the procedure. When I woke up from the procedure, tears were in my eyes. I felt ashamed, guilty, and dirty. I thought I would be fine afterwards, if only I knew that nothing would be fine. Years have passed and still that day is so clear in my mind. There isn't a day that go by that I don't regret my abortion. There would be times when I would just cry for hours. I became depressed and suicidal. When my mother found out, she was disappointed. We have never been able to look at each other the same. I'm still hiding, hiding in my lie and shame. I have not recovered and I don't think that I will. Abortion is never a solution!!
Date: November 6, 2006