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I was 14—a latchkey kid—in the 80's. I had a boyfriend, and my sister gave me the talk to get on the pill. So I went down to Planned Parenthood and got free birth control pills. I basically lived with my boyfriend. My parents were in the process of divorcing and they were barely home, so they didn't know what I was up to. A year later, I contracted the measles—which is possibly harmful to an unborn baby. While I was sick, I forgot to take the pill and ended up pregnant. I was so happy when I found out, but others didn't feel the same. The lady at Planned Parenthood advocated abortion, my boyfriend advocated abortion, and my family and friends all advocated abortion. My brother was born retarded because my mom had the measles, and since I had the measles, she didn't want a second generation of mental retardation. I had no one advocate to keep my baby or place for adoption. I believe if I had support, I would have kept my baby or given her up for adoption. Needless to say, with a heavy heart I made the appointment. My boyfriend took me to the abortion clinic, paid for it, and dropped me off. I was in the room, received medication, and I asked the nurse to stop—I couldn't do this. I changed my mind. She patted my hand and said that it was okay. She gave me more medication; the room started spinning. When I woke up, I felt like death. Death was all around me. After that, I didn't care about life anymore. I had suicidal thoughts, was reckless with my life, promiscuous, and I drank a lot. Years later, God in his mercy walked me through a funeral for my baby whom I believe is a girl. I named her Shalyn Rene. I needed to give her a resting place; it was too much of a burden—and unhealthy—to keep hanging on to her. I had to accept the fact she was dead and in heaven. I regret not walking out of the clinic. I regret having the abortion to this day. There are days when I just feel like crying. I'm depressed and feel it's because of the abortion I had more than 30 years ago. If I can say one thing to a women who is pregnant: Abortion is not the answer; you will regret it for the rest of your life. It's your natural instinct to protect and care for your baby, even if they might be handicapped. Killing him or her goes against your very basic instinct. You will lay awake and wonder what they look like and what kind of person they would have become had you not made the decision to abort. If you don't have money, God will provide all your needs according to His great riches.

Age: 48
Location: Seattle, WA
Date: June 23, 2019