Submitted to Abort73 by a 22-year-old woman on December 19, 2005.
On Monday July 4, 2005 I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant. When I told my boyfriend I was pregnant the first thing he told me was to find out how much an abortion was going to cost. Two days later I made the appointment. When I went to his house I told him that I didn't want to have an abortion. He told me how he already had a child and it was far for him to take care of him and that he wouldn't want to be away from our baby just in case he had to move back to his home state. I agreed with him but told him that he could sign away his rights and not have to worry about our baby. I also told him that I was worried about the emotional effects. He told me I was just being crazy about the whole thing and was even offended that I ask him to give up his rights. I went ahead with the abortion on July 19 at 2:25 pm. The abortion didn't hurt, but I cried trough the whole thing; I haven't stopped crying yet. My boyfriend and I have broken up and he only moved one hour away from me. It's been almost 6 months and my heart is still hurting. I went to get help for the pain and it's been easier but hasn't gone away. Now three of my friends are pregnant and it's hard for me to talk to them without longing for the baby I lost.
Date: December 19, 2005