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I was 22, and I had just started dating my boyfriend. I felt pregnant, so I turned to a friend who I knew had had two abortions before. I wasn't thinking that maybe she would have a one-sided opinion. From the moment I found out I was pregnant, she pushed abortion on me and told me I wasn't ready and it wasn't the right time. After the abortion, I cried, but I moved on—or so I thought. I came to the decision that night to have an abortion and my friend made the appointment And took me. My boyfriend is now my husband, after dating for eight years. We just got married, and now I'm pregnant again, but I feel so much regret for what I did back then. I look at my life and wonder how much better it would have been to have the baby. After the abortion I became so protective about not getting pregnant again that it prevented us from moving on. I didn't realize that we were ready to have kids so many years ago, and now I'm coming to the end of my "maternal age" with no children. I had fears of my child growing up in two homes with two parents arguing. I was wrong. My husband is an amazing guy, and he would have welcomed the child into this world, but I made the decision to take it away. My advice is take time to really think it through. If you think your life will be better without a baby right now, think about how great a baby could make you. I think about the baby’s age and that I should have been a mom by now. I should have a 7-year-old child. I would give up my relationship with my husband and all the amazing memories we've shared together just to have that baby back. Think about how great it is to see your child grow and how it will affect your future pregnancies. Right now I've hit an all time low in my life, and I can't even wrap my head around my current pregnancy. I'm so depressed, I've never been medicated before in my life, but now I'm on a whole slew of anti-depressants. And after almost seven years of not smoking, I started smoking again. The past is now catching up with me; I'm killing the baby I could have now because of the baby I should have had then. I hope this story will help you. Trust me, abortion is not the answer.

Age: 30
Location: Maryland
Date: September 19, 2017