Submitted to Abort73 by a 20-year-old woman on July 14, 2016.
I'm not for or against abortion. I just want to share my personal story to help others out. I was 19 years old and had been dating my boyfriend for almost three years when I found out I was pregnant. When I found out, I was around 4-5 weeks. I was happy, sad, excited, nervous, and sick all in one. Some days I just knew I would be the perfect mom and couldn't wait to hold and meet my precious baby. Other days, I felt so terrible and worried so much that I didn't want the baby at all. Although I had been with my boyfriend for years, when I told him I was pregnant, it was like I told a stranger. He was not happy or excited; he was worried—worried that we couldn't take care of it. Long story short, we decided that abortion would be best. The actual abortion was not bad. It was quick and not that painful. But knowing that I had killed my baby was a pain that I never experienced before. It was unbearable. I thought about suicide. I thought about doing things to hurt my boyfriend. I didn't understand why he didn't want the baby. I was just so hurt. I was torn up and still am. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don't think about what I did. I would do anything to go back and change it. I just encourage all young girls to follow your heart. Don't listen to anyone tell you what to do; it's your body. Keep YOUR baby. Keeping your baby and putting up with the sickness and whatever else may come with a baby is better than abortion. An abortion tears you apart. I had to seek mental help. Day by day, I'm getting better. You have a precious life in you. I didn’t realize how much that really means until I didn’t have it anymore. Keep your baby. Pray. God will make a way for you and that child.
Date: July 14, 2016