Abortion Story: Kentucky
Submitted to Abort73 by a 17-year-old woman on April 8, 2016.
It has only been one week since my abortion. Every day it is hard to get out of bed. Every day I think about my baby. I would be 13 weeks and 5 days today. It is always in my head. Every time I see a baby or a pregnant woman I feel sick. I cannot sleep. I cannot eat. I cannot feel normal. I have never regretted a decision more than I have this one. I felt pressured from my mom and my boyfriend’s mom to go through with it. I did not want to abort my baby. I’m telling my story to let other women know that they do not need to feel pressure from other people on what to do when faced with the decision. I feel as if my life will not get any better from here on. Every time I feel even the slightest bit of happiness, I feel guilty. I feel as if I do not deserve for the rest of my life to be happy. I had a medical abortion and was way too far along to have done so. I immediately started feeling unbearable measures of pain. This continued for five hours until I felt something pass. I went to the bathroom and saw something I wish I could erase from my brain but cannot. My baby was 12 weeks old, and I saw his or her developing body with hands and feet and spine and eyes. It was traumatizing. I don't think I will ever feel better again. I just wanted to share my story so that no woman goes through with something that they did not want. I hope no woman ever has to feel the sadness and regret that I do.
Date: April 8, 2016