Abortion Story: Essex, UK
Submitted to Abort73 by a 21-year-old woman on November 30, 2015.
I had an abortion last week. I was 6 weeks and 5 days. It has been the biggest regret of my life. My boyfriend pressured me into the abortion, telling me he would leave me if I wanted to keep it, and I felt my family would not support me either because I am young. In my eyes, I had no other option than to abort because I did not think I would have anyone to help me financially since I would have to leave my job. From the moment I had my scan at my termination appointment, I knew I should have walked away but still went through with the abortion. After the abortion, I was in so much pain that I had to tell my mum who told me she would have supported my pregnancy. My boyfriend is giving me no emotional support whatsoever. My heart feels broken; I feel so much regret and so selfish. I can't believe I have done this and would do anything to change the outcome. I know I can't and need to live with what I have done, but I am now having very depressing thoughts that maybe I can't carry on living like this. I have called up regarding possible counseling, but I imagine they'll say the same thing as my close friends—that time is a healer for my loss, etc, etc. All I want is to get pregnant again. I know this isn't the solution, but these are the mixed thoughts I am having. I need to know if anyone else has been through this and felt like this, and how they got through it? Please, can someone help?
Location: Essex, UK
Date: November 30, 2015