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Just a few days ago, I went through an abortion. I was 9-weeks pregnant. I found out at six weeks and somewhat "bonded" through those three weeks with my baby. I am still in school and do not have a job. My boyfriend and I agreed to the abortion; we are both not ready for a baby. It was an accidental pregnancy. I really wish I wasn't put in that difficult position. We are both still in school and not financially able to even support ourselves, let alone a baby. I didn't want to drop out of school and have him do the same either. We are so close to finishing. I really wish I didn't have to abort my baby. I saw the ultrasound, and I really really wanted to keep it. But I know it wouldn't have been right. When I bring a baby into this world, I want it to be wanted by BOTH parents and raised with tons of emotional and financial support. I want the best for my baby. I am conflicted because part of me knew it would have been bad to keep it, but deep down I really wanted to have my baby. I know I didn't really see it or feel it, but I loved it with all my heart. I love my baby more than anything in this world, even though I wasn't brave enough to keep it. I would have given that baby all the love in the entire universe. I never met it, but I loved it more than life itself. I feel like its weird for me to say that. Part of me wishes I could have my baby back. My baby! I don't know how I'm going to cope with this.

Age: 21
Location: USA
Date: October 14, 2015