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My boyfriend and I have been going out for almost 3 years, and last year I fell ill. I was 16 years old at the time. I was taken to the doctor by my mother and was diagnosed with gastro. The doctor said that if my vomiting did not stop, I should be taken to a hospital. The vomiting never stopped, and I ended up in a hospital where they set me up on a drip and ran a blood test. The doctor called me into a separate room and told me that the reason for my symptoms was that I was 7 weeks pregnant. I had no idea how to tell my parents. My boyfriend and his family were overjoyed, but my mother said I was too young, had my whole life ahead of me and was not ready to have a baby yet. My mother suggested that I have an abortion. My father disagreed but eventually gave in. I cried all the way to the abortion clinic the next day. I didn't know what to expect. I told her I changed my mind, but she said that it was already too late. It was the worst 5 minutes of my life. I cried for days after that. Every time I look at a baby, especially a newborn, I feel a hole inside of me. I feel empty and get depressed and emotional, and I start to cry. To this day, it is my deepest regret. If I could go back in time, I would stop myself because it eats away at me every day, without fail.

Age: 17
Location: Cape Town
Date: December 10, 2013