Abortion Story: Washington
Submitted to Abort73 by a 50-year-old woman on February 24, 2013.
I have replayed the time in my life when I had an abortion so many times in my head. The last 29 years of my life have been spent with remorse and anger so intense, at times, I can't believe it happened. I was 21 and in a committed relationship when I got pregnant. My boyfriend was a true "mama's boy," and there was no way he was going to let me go through with the pregnancy. Ultimately, it was my decision, made in a haze of alcohol that I used in an attempt to pretend it wasn't happening. As I lay on the table waiting for them to administer the anesthesia, I changed my mind. I told the clinic workers that I couldn't go through with it and tried to get up. The next thing I knew, I was waking up with horrible pain, bleeding through pad after pad. I told the woman in the recovery room that I was bleeding more than what she said I should have been, and she told me to get dressed and go home to relax for the rest of the day. About a week later, I had pain so excruciating, that I can only now describe it as labor pain. After phoning the clinic, I was told to put ice on my belly and elevate my feet. Long story short, I began to hemorrhage uncontrollably. My boyfriend phoned the clinic repeatedly throughout the night and each time we were told specifically to NOT seek medical attention. It was normal they said, it happened sometimes. I laid on the floor in a ball for most of the night, getting myself to the toilet every 1/2 hour or so to pass massive blood clots. Several years later, when I was married and seven months pregnant, I began to hemorrhage and nearly lost my daughter. As it turned out, my uterus had been punctured during the abortion. I am not an overly religious person at all. However, I do know that the lives of my three now grown children began when they were conceived. There was not a moment in time when they were not my babies. I wish my choice had not been taken from me all of those years ago.
Date: February 24, 2013