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When I was 15, I thought I was in love with my boyfriend. We did everything together. He was my world. My mom and his grandma were good friends. Everyone was happy that we were together. We lost our virginity to each other. One day I was not feeling good and thought I was pregnant, so I told my boyfriend. He said, "No, you're probably just sick," so I brushed it off. I was getting lazy, sleeping all day, and I knew I was pregnant. So I told him again, and he just looked at me. He tried to make me have a miscarriage by squeezing my stomach. My brother even pushed me down stairs. My mom came to his house one day while we were watching TV.  She took my boyfriend outside to talk. When she came back in, she told me to leave with her and I did. My boyfriend could not even look me in the eyes before I left. My mom and I sat in the car for a while, and she said nothing to me. She went to the store and had me wait in the car. We got home and she said that I was going to take a pregnancy test. I took it, and she looked at it and started crying, saying, "You're pregnant, you messed your life up…" I started to cry, and she told me I was getting an abortion. I told my boyfriend, but he did not care so I said OK, I guess this is what I'm doing. My mom set the appointment. When I got there I was scared. They checked me over to see how far I was. I was 2 months, 3 days. I got the abortion, and for a few weeks all I could hear was a baby crying.

To this day, I regret having the abortion. I wish I could go back and undo what is done, but I can't. I still cry about it. I ended up with a new boyfriend a year later, and we've been together for four years. I told him about the abortion, and he said it's fine as long as I don't get another one. I said I wouldn't. Well, I ended up pregnant with his baby at 19, and my mom was pissed. She said she was disowning me and that I had to get another abortion. She told me I was not allowed to see my boyfriend anymore. He and his mom ended up coming to the house to talk to my mom, but my mom wouldn't listen. So my mom set up the abortion, and all I could do is cry. It was so much drama. She would not let me eat anything; I was getting sick. I was losing so much weight so fast. I finally told her I would get the abortion, but my boyfriend said if I got the abortion, then we were done. I got the abortion and told him I had a miscarriage. He was hurt, but we are still together. I told my mom that she made my life a living hell. I killed two of my unborn children because it's what she wanted. I was old enough to say something, but I didn't because I did not want my mom mad at me. I think about the abortions all the time. I know I make a mistake the first time, and I should have kept it the second time. I don't talk to my mom anymore because she kept bringing the abortions up and saying she wishes I would have kept both kids.

To those ladies that want an abortion, think about it first. Think about what you're going to do to your self and what you want. I hurt every day because of my poor decisions.

Age: 20
Date: December 5, 2012