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I was 17 when I got pregnant. I had been in an emotionally and physically abusive relationship for going on 2 years. The more abusive he became, the more desperate I became for his love. From the time I found out I was pregnant, I knew I was going to have an abortion. I had always seen abortion as a woman's choice and not a big deal. My baby's father went to the ultra sound appointment to see how far along I was; he held my hand through the whole thing and even begged for a picture of the baby. It felt good to have his support since I was hiding my pregnancy from my family. Throughout our relationship, he would break up with me and I would always beg him to come back to me. Two weeks before my abortion appointment, my now ex-boyfriend called and flat out told me he couldn't deal with the pregnancy and told me to stay the hell way from him. I have never been so hurt; I couldn't believe he couldn't even wait 2 weeks for me to have my abortion to leave me. On October 19, 2011, I went to my abortion appointment alone. I had never feel that alone in my life. As they escorted me to the surgery room, i kept reassuring myself that what I was doing was for the best. The night after my abortion, I laid in bed and held my stomach and realized my baby was no longer there, and i became an emotional disaster. For weeks I cried myself to sleep. I love my baby more then anything in this world; there is not a day that goes by that I don't feel regret and guilt for my abortion. I hope that my child forgives me and knows how much I love them. My baby helped me stay away from my ex, and for that I will always be grateful. But if I could change anything in the world, I would have my baby here with me.

Age: 18
Location: Michigan
Date: July 11, 2012