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I got my first abortion when I was 19. I told my grandma I was pregnant and she told me I was a shame for the family, that I should live alone and give birth to my child away from the house. She was mean to me. When I told my mom she wasn't very happy about the news. She just said, ''why didn't you think before getting pregnant?'' So I decided to get the abortion, because I felt everyone hated me. I regret it, but soon I healed.  On 2010, I went to a friend's house to have some drinks and have fun. She introduced me to her cousin, a good looking guy. After a couple of hours, she went to sleep and he and I stayed in the hallway. I was drunk at that moment. I went to the bathroom and he followed me. I don't remember that part very well, but after some minutes I realized he was on top of me. I pushed him away from me, grabbed my things and went home. After a couple of weeks, I missed my period and when I got a pregnancy test this turned positive. I felt so scared and alone. I couldn't believe it! So at that time I decided to have an abortion again. That hurt me so much. I know the victim wasn't that innocent creature growing inside me, but I couldn't take it.

Now I found out that I'm pregnant again. For my bad fortune, the father doesn't want to recognize it. He already has two, with two different women. One of them he doesn't even know. And the only thing he says to me is to get an abortion. I know it's my body and it's my decision... I really want to become a mother, but not this way. It hurts me so much that this is happening to me. I'm 6 weeks now and I want to keep it, but my heart tells me my baby will suffer. I feel scared again, and empty. I feel the Universe is against me.

Age: 26
Location: Lima
Date: July 1, 2012