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I never dreamed I could be pregnant, and when I found out I was only 20. It was a shock and scary. I had a boyfriend who had two children already, and he had filled my head with lies, saying he wanted me to have his child and even had the fake tears to go along with it. But when I found out I was pregnant in August of 2009, instead of being happy about the whole thing, he told me if I didn't get rid of the child, I would no longer be a part of his life. I was shocked and heartbroken, and to make matters worse, I had to face my critical mother with the news. As expected she was furious and called me a whore in front of my aunt, uncle, and two brothers and then told me I didn't have a choice, and I would get an abortion or face being disowned and so reluctantly, I had the procedure done a few weeks shy of my 21 birthday, which my mom commented was my birthday present. It was an extremely painful experience because they did not numb me like they were supposed to and so I felt everything, and the pressure was unbearable. I cried the whole way through. Afterwards, I felt so ashamed and saddened and they even give you a sonogram picture to keep, which made it even worse. but that wouldn't be my last visit to the clinic because in October I got pregnant a second time and was very against going through the torture again, but my mother was constantly putting me down saying I wouldn't be a good mom and she wouldn't be a part of my life and my boyfriend ended up blocking my number after I told him and turned his whole family against me and so I was all alone and went in December to get a second abortion. I regret the choice everyday and still carry hate towards my mother for putting me through that and not supporting me. People are very negative about abortion and I have been called horrible things because of it. It doesn't help my already emotional grief.

Age: 23
Location: Wichita, KS
Date: February 21, 2012