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I was 19. Young and scared. I was in an emotionally abusive relationship, and although I was raised to know that abortion was "wrong", I never truly understood why. When I was a senior in high school, I remember writing a short essay about abortion being a "diabolical" act, that no one should EVER take part in. Judgmental? Yep. Until, I became the statistic. When I found out I was pregnant, I actually did want to keep the baby, because that was the "right thing to do". The guy I was dating was not good father material, and still isn't to this day. We each paid half, and I was made to feel guilty that he had to pay for half of it. Or, I let him make me feel that way. At any rate, we drove an hour away from where we lived to a clinic, and I underwent the procedure. They gave me tear gas, but it hurt. Honestly, that day, I felt relief. But, then came the guilt, the shame, and not being able to forgive myself and heal. I was old enough to have unprotected sex, but not old enough to raise a baby. Certainly not me. I think back on that time in my life, and wonder what life would be like - now - with a 12 year old child. Wow. I always tell people that you truly never know what you will do until you find yourself in a given situation. Never say never. But, if you are one to learn from others' mistakes, I would urge you to NOT abort. Eventually, with God's help, I was able to forgive myself, and move on. I still remember that date in my head, the exact date, as it comes up every year. And, sometimes I still feel guilty, but I know what's in the past has passed, and I can't do anything to change it. That's the hardest part.

Age: 31
Location: USA
Date: December 9, 2011