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I have had 3 abortions. My life since these abortions has been a train wreck: 3 marriages, drugs, alcohol, depression, guilt, shame. I never knew why I was such a mess. My first one was at 20. I had no idea at that time I was killing a child. I cried after the first one, and the second. After the third one, I was very ill. I had an infection the very next morning. I was sick for about a month. As I went through my life I stuffed my abortions so far down. I was in such denial. I was pro-choice for a long time. It was just until the last 3 years that I started the process of getting out of denial of what I had done. I started attending a Bible study and God was gently nudging me to come clean on what I had done. I found a post abortive woman's group. It was based on the Bible and God's forgiveness. I had no idea that I had killed 3 children. I had no idea that I was a mom. I was in so much pain and sickened by what I had done. I had denied my children their lives because of my selfish and destructive behavior. Today, I am a mother of 3 children that are in heaven with their heavenly Father. Not a day goes by that I don't grieve the loss of my children and regret what I have done. There are no "do-over's" with abortion. It is only by the mercy and grace of God that I am alive today. It is only by his amazing forgiveness and love that I can talk about what I did. I have dedicated my life to fighting abortion. I pray that God will use me to tell the truth of what abortion is. I currently volunteer my time as a consultant at a Christian based pregnancy crisis center. I can't wait for the day that I meet my children. And, I pray that they will forgive me. All that I do in the fight to end abortion is to honor my children and God. Thank you Lord for your unending mercy and grace.

Age: 53
Location: Cheney, WA
Date: November 11, 2011