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I'm 18. I had my first son at only 15 (Now 3 years old); my second son in June of this year (Now 4 1/2 months old). I graduated high school early and have plans to go to college. I'm in a relationship with my first son's father. He has a 1 1/2 year old from another relationship. Together, we have 3 children. My youngest son's father is in jail and will be for a very long time. I found out I was pregnant again (My 4th pregnancy, 1 miscarriage) in September of this year. I went back and forth on my decision for about 2 weeks. I felt like I wouldn't be able to handle another child. I could barely get up with my youngest during the nights when he wasn't sleeping through the night. The two older ones are a handful. My fiance works crazy hours all the time and barely gets days off. My parents and everyone around me would've been so disappointed. September 24th, 2011 was the day I had the abortion. I never wanted to be put in the situation where abortion was an option. The baby would've been born Late May 2012, before my youngest even turned one. I think about it everyday. I regret my decision so badly, I just wish I could turn back the hands of time. Even though I felt like it would've been a lot, God wouldn't have put anything in front of me that I couldn't handle. I feel guilty that I have destroyed a life. Maybe he/she would've grown up to be a president, or doctor (finding cures for cancer), etc. I find myself dazed thinking about it often. Anyone who is considering abortion, please, please, please, think long and hard about it. Consider all options and never let anyone make the decision for you. YOU will be the one on that cold operating table. This is something I feel I will never get over, never forget. If only I would've known what I know now. Things would be different.

RIP Angel Baby, Mommy is so sorry :,(

Age: 18
Location: Virginia
Date: November 3, 2011