Abortion Story: Los Angeles, CA
Submitted to Abort73 by a 20-year-old woman on November 3, 2011.
I hope writing about my story will help as a healing process for myself as well as help others. If I had not gotten an abortion, I would be 13 weeks. At 5 weeks I made the toughest decision of my life. I never thought I could be a girl to get pregnant at 20 without a husband. I always promised myself I would be careful until I was married. But having a relationship for 4 years with the same person at such a young age, I forgot how important it was to be careful. I was with my two best friends at the time that I found out. We all started crying and I went into sudden shock. I didn't know how to feel for the first couple of days and I could tell that my boyfriend at the time was upset and startled at the news. Here I am, a third year undergraduate student seeking to obtain a masters degree at an IV league university with a 4.0 GPA under my belt. I was selfish, irresponsible, and stupid. It has been almost 2 months since my abortion and I have never been so depressed in my life. I have started caring less for my studies and I left my boyfriend after 4 years because he convinced me to have the abortion which made me angry. I don't like to talk about it with anyone and I am so angry I don't think I deserve to be happy right now. All your friends and close ones will tell you when your pregnant, as mine did, that you need to think about your future and the timing isn't right and you should have an abortion. It's the "right thing to do." But, you're the only one that experiences the aftermath, and it is not worth it. I am ashamed of what I have done and I hope God will one day forgive me so that I can forgive myself. For now, I am just drowning in my misery.
Location: Los Angeles, CA
Date: November 3, 2011