Abortion Story: Texas
Submitted to Abort73 by a 36-year-old woman on October 17, 2011.
So much pain, shame, guilt and heartbreak. I had an abortion when I was 19 years old. I had gone off to college, partying with everyone, and thought I was with someone who cared about me. He was just a scared boy from a family of dysfunction and couldn't handle the responsibility. I was alone. In another state. My parents would not understand. I was already on thin ice with them for the previous few years of rebellion. This would have just cemented their judgments that I was a problem. So, with the counsel of people I tried to believe were friends, I had an abortion. It was early December, early in the morning. There were some silent protesters outside of the clinic, but I was already despaired. Nothing could turn me back. Had I even had a glimmer of the pain, haunting memories, shame, guilt, self-hatred that would follow, that would have been enough to turn me around. Please let this serve as someone's glimmer. I now have four beautiful children and have fully healed, thanks to the "Forgiven and Set Free" post-abortion curriculum at a local pregnancy center. My testimony is that God is a forgiving God. But the hardest part is allowing yourself to forgive you. My son, Ethan (that's part of the program, naming your unborn child), would be 16 now. I have a beautiful candle on my mantel to remind me of him. My husband knows and was a blessing as I went through the healing process. I have had the chance to lead a group of women through the post-abortion study, too, because this tragedy affects many more women that we will ever know! It is a secret shame. Let's heal each other, and use our stories to change lives and saves lives.
Date: October 17, 2011