Submitted to Abort73 by a -year-old woman on September 16, 2011.
People think that abortion is something that happens one day and then life goes on. Well, yea...life goes on, but it's never the same. I was 18 when I had my abortion. I was young and scared and felt like I had no other option. It cost about 300 dollars or so. I didn't want to be awake to know what the doctor was doing. I went into the clinic and the nurses were very nonchalant about the situation, I'm assuming because they see this everyday. I filled out the paperwork and they sent me to the back room. I sat there in the waiting room with 9 other girls, who were about to do the same thing I was. It was sickening. It was like a factory of women who were there to get this over with and move on. Many of them had done this before. They did an ultrasound and wouldn't tell me anything about the fetus inside me because they did not want me to change my mind. The last thing I remember was laying down, my feet in stirrups and counting backwards from 100. I woke up in the recovery room and cried right away. There were probably 11 girls in that room alone. I went home that day and never felt the same about myself. It is probably the biggest mistake of my life. August 10th comes around every year and all I think is that my child would've been 4 years old. I know God forgave me for my mistake, because he is merciful like that, and he knows what I did and that I'm truly sorry. Please if you are considering this, find another option. It is NOT WORTH THE PAIN AND SUFFERING that you feel everyday. There's nothing like the embarrassment of having to fill out forms and the doctors office or even to donate blood and it asks: "Have you ever been pregnant?" or "Number of pregnancies:"... I hate myself some days and I don't wish this feeling upon anyone else.
Date: September 16, 2011