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I was 17 and my boyfriend and I stupidly thought that getting pregnant would bring us closer together. It did. We were very excited until his mom shoved $700 our way and told us to fix the problem. My boyfriend was a mama's boy and said this is what has to happen, we will try again in a year or two. I didn't want to lose him, so I agreed. What`s the big deal? It`s not like I won't have another baby some day. On June 1, 2008, I walked into a clinic all alone, scared out of my mind. I don`t want to do this. Why am I doing this? I heard the machine turn on, I felt the woman who called herself a doctor between my legs, I felt the them suck my child out of my body. I screamed and told them to stop, but they held me down and said it would be over soon. It was over. I sat in a stiff leather recliner with tears streaming down my face. What have I done? The nurse told me to stop crying, and that I was scaring the other girls. I said "good". My boyfriend carried me out of the clinic two hours later, I didn't have the strength to go on. I healed quickly apparently, it only took two weeks. My boyfriend and I broke up 3 months later. His mom was very pleased.

I'm twenty two now, married to a wonderful man, and we have a beautiful year old daughter now. My husband doesn't even know what I did that day years ago. He never will. I haven't told anyone. But I think of that baby every day of my life. I sometimes can't sleep at night because I can't get the feeling, and the sounds out of my head. I believe the baby was a boy, and I named him a name that is very special to me. I know people think that abortion is okay, and that it's not a big deal, and that's its a personal choice. But it just doesn't make sense to me. A child is a child, unwanted or not. It should have a personal choice. I wish I had kept my baby, to see him grow up and to know what he would have looked like. I swear I could hear his cries when they were sucking him out of me. His cries and mine haunt my thoughts and will continue to haunt my thoughts for the rest of my life.

If you're thinking of having an abortion, please don't! Don't willingly do this to yourself, to the child that is growing inside of you. There are many other options available to you! Your parents will hate you? They'll get over it. Your boyfriend will leave you? Good, he's not worth it. You wanted a baby, but now you realize your mistake? Every mistake has consequences and you should make right of your decision and go with adoption! You wont regret it.

Age: 22
Location: British Columbia, Canada
Date: August 16, 2011