Abortion Story: New Jersey
Submitted to Abort73 by a 51-year-old woman on July 23, 2011.
Back in the 80's abortion was like birth control. We did it. We all did it. We did it and then we went to work, play etc. We didn't think for a second about the unborn "babies" we were destroying. We thought of ourselves. What wasn't "convenient" was discarded. I went on with my life and didn't give what I had done another thought. UNTIL I delivered my first daughter 4 years later. That's when it hit me and the pain started. The guilt, remorse, regret, and disgust for my decisions. I was horrified at myself and my generation. I lay in bed at night trying to picture my 2 unborn babies being mercilessly murdered at my own will. I am haunted to this day. I went on to deliver 2 more healthy children and with each birth I relived my murder. I am still sad, haunted, and empty from my callous choices back in the 80's. As a mature woman with 3 children, I am now about to become a Grandmother. My unmarried, depressed, 20 year old daughter is pregnant. She too thought it was not a "convenient" time to become a mother. It took every ounce of strength and fortitude I could muster up to help her decide NOT to abort. The abortion was already paid for, and scheduled, 4x before she shared her predicament with me. I prayed and asked the church and was counseled how to approach her and they all stepped in. What seemed like a lot of trouble, and hopeless, has proven to be more than worth it. My baby is having a baby and I will be a Grandmother. I have since signed up to volunteer at a Pregnancy Outreach Center to help other young girls face this hard road. I am thankful that God is using me and my testimony to help others avoid the pain and torment my "choice" left me with.
Location: New Jersey
Date: July 23, 2011