Personal testimonies from women (and men) who have gone through an abortion.
The unsolicited abortion stories on these pages have come to Abort73 through our online submission form. Though not all women regret their abortions, these stories demonstrate that countless women do.
"I found out about my pregnancy when I was about 4-5 weeks in. I wanted to keep the baby, until the father made me feel like it was a selfish and impossible decision. It has been three months since my abortion. To say that this was the worst decision I've ever made would be an understatement. Sometimes I can't look at myself in the mirror. I feel guilty and alone. I don't know if I'll ever learn…"
Date: August 30, 2016
"I had my abortion at the end of April. I was 9-weeks pregnant. I knew I was pregnant for over a month; I just didn't know what to do. It was the worst time of my life. I was at the end of my university year and couldn't do my exams. I couldn’t talk or do anything; I just stared into space. I got a scan done the day of the abortion, and she gave me the pictures of the baby. I looked at them…"
Location: London, UK
Date: August 20, 2016
"I'm 25 days away from the day my precious baby was due to be born. Every day it gets harder to go on. I have to constantly battle with myself, should I take my life today—or should I not? Do I even deserve the sweet release that death would bring? I think I will only be truly be happy when I join my baby in the afterlife. I will never forgive myself, ever! You know what makes my blood boil?…"
Location: New Zealand
Date: August 20, 2016
"I was 15. After a few occasional hook ups with one of my close guy friends, I took a test and found out I was pregnant. I was scared and tried leaning on him for support. But naturally, football and cars were not worth giving up for the sake of our child’s life. He begged me and begged me to get an abortion. He even threatened telling people in my family who I didn’t want to know.…"
Date: August 17, 2016
"In 2012 I met a man who I quickly got engaged to. He was a born-Egyptian, naturalized to US citizen due to his service as a Marine. He was a Muslim (although hardly practicing) and very proud of his service in the Marines. He actually became a Marine because of how he was treated after 9/11. He wanted to prove to racist Americans that he is a good man who loves America. Anyway, I was into smoking…"
Location: New Hampshire
Date: August 12, 2016
"I found out on June 28 that I was pregnant, but we kinda already knew. We were so happy; everything was going great. I am now filled with so much regret. I knew that the hospital would call with the results. My mother betrayed me. She called back and pretended to be me. That's how she found out. A week later, we were in the abortion clinic. I cried so hard, and she just didn't care. As of today,…"
Location: Philadelphia, PA
Date: August 8, 2016
"I was 14 years old when I did my abortion. The father, my boyfriend at the time, was 13 years older than me and was from another country. And my mum was gonna kill me if she found out. Being her only daughter, I was scared to disappoint her. The shame I would bring to my family and friends. Well here's my story. We had unprotected sex on the first day we met, and I was on my period. We had sex…"
Location: Mpumalanga, South Africa
Date: August 7, 2016
"A few recent events compel me to write again, four years after submitting my story on February 2, 2012. Last year, my aborted baby's father found me online for the first time in all these years, after I left him back when I was 18. The first thing that I did when I got that message was put my head in my hands and cry in total shock. Like a vortex, I was instantly brought back to the day of my…"
Date: August 6, 2016
"My story is a little different. I was 17 when I told my mother I was pregnant. She said we had to take care of it before my father found out. I had to have an abortion. I told her I was too far along for that. She said she would figure it out. I know she had to come up with $250, which she made me feel guilty for. She made me feel so ashamed, and she was my mother. I thought I had to listen.…"
Date: July 30, 2016
"It's been one month since I had my abortion. And here I am at 2 AM, looking for some way to relieve my feelings of grief and regret. I've never been so disappointed and ashamed of myself. To think that I should have been a mother. My boyfriend should have been a father. But we're not. And we won't be. Because of fear and selfishness, on both our parts. All I see when I look around is babies,…"
Date: July 27, 2016
"We had a lovely, perfect relationship. Who doesn’t want such a relationship. She gave me everything I ever wanted, everything I ever needed. She is the strong beat deep in the chambers of my heart. But that heartbeat became faint and quiet as days passed. It’s a month now since we sent our baby to heaven. We knew we couldn’t afford to have a baby. We couldn’t sustain a…"
Location: Hyderabad, India
Date: July 20, 2016
"I was in secondary school and my boyfriend was also at secondary. I got pregnant. My boyfriend was happy about the pregnancy, but I was scared and confused. Then I told my mom, and she forced me into an abortion. I did it because I didn’t have a choice, but I regret it every day. And I will regret it until I die."
Location: South Africa
Date: July 17, 2016
"I found out I was pregnant at ten weeks. I went to a women's center to get an ultrasound. I saw the baby move and heard its heartbeat. I was in complete shock. I could see the feet and hands so clearly. It was a tiny human. But I had convinced myself abortion was the best option. I had only known the baby's father for a couple months and we were not in a relationship. He was a lot older than…"
Location: Cincinnati, OH
Date: July 15, 2016
"I'm not for or against abortion. I just want to share my personal story to help others out. I was 19 years old and had been dating my boyfriend for almost three years when I found out I was pregnant. When I found out, I was around 4-5 weeks. I was happy, sad, excited, nervous, and sick all in one. Some days I just knew I would be the perfect mom and couldn't wait to hold and meet my precious…"
Date: July 14, 2016
"I was 17 when I found out I was pregnant. I didn’t tell my boyfriend right away because I was so scared. My sister had just told my parents she was pregnant. All I thought was, “Oh God, how embarrassing for them for both their girls to be pregnant under the age of 20.” Not to mention, we came from a very Latino community, and pregnancy at a young age ran rampant. The judgment…"
Location: Chicago, IL
Date: July 13, 2016